life.  UGH.

9.22.07 @ 1:42pm

MOOD: kind of blank.

damn, sometimes life can be hard.  it is unfortunate that it takes something really terrifying and horrible to make you realize how unimportant all the other things in your life that you've been stressing over are.  its like everything else doesn't matter, and the more you think about it, the more you think there's no point in doing anything at all.  nothing else is worth even thinking about, let alone doing.  but i guess you can't get stuck inside your head like that.  it helps nobody, let alone yourself.  all you can do is keep moving.  do what you can to help, be supportive, and just keep going.  so, i guess that's what i'm trying to do right now.  i'm maybe not as successful as i'd like to be at it, but i am doing what i can.  i guess that's all i can do.  sometimes that is the most difficult realization to come to.  that you can only do so much, and that everything isn't in your power.  despite how much you may want to change something or help someone, some things are just not in your control.  so you have to just let it go and hope for the best.  i'm trying.